Don’t get me wrong. Birthdays have always been a somewhat disappointing thing for me partially because expectations are usually not met. For instance, friends or classmates that you think you’re close to don’t say anything and feel kind of sour but it may be because they don’t know/forget/can’t remember/don’t care. But really, not everyone expresses themselves in the same way. Sometimes a person may value time spent with the other than a single day. After all, what is one day out of three hundred and sixty five?
That being said, I’m very thankful for all the people that have remembered my birthday and wished me (thanks to the likes of facebook). It’s interesting to see how people that I somewhat knew but I didn’t know I’ll be close to ended up being so six years down the road. It’s also sad to see that many of those I thought I will still be friends with aren’t around or not so close anymore.
Today was … epic. Some moments like Lesley and Almira’s present (with Almira’s rapping accompaniment), Krys’ Off-Key Happy Birthday, Air Con Waterfeature, Isabelle’s Early Morning Korean Happy Birthday, Sarah’s Lame Chem Joke, Anki’s Oriental Bookmark, Suraj’s Hypnopaedic Wish, Kheng Boon’s Disgusting Wig, Random Signature Sessions with YT and TGQI, TGQI’s Random Pandan Cake, Many Many Hugs, Rozzels the Sheep. The night was especially hilarious after a dinner at Isle when Becky threw a surprise 7/8 ice-cream treat (oh dear the cost) in the birthday cup (yay). Since there was not enough space, 8 of us ended up hoboing in a desolate corner of sunshine which was great. The night ended with the guards (oh the irony) chasing us out from our second home and a funny penny board chase.
Indeed, these will be moments in time that I’ll always cherish no matter how small they may seem.
I think the root to discontentment is that there is always a basis for comparison. However, I believe that every birthday is different and special and cannot be compared to anything else. What’s most important is to enjoy, make others happy and celebrate this gift of life. It’s hilarious to recollect how I used to think that this was self appreciation day where you proved how much social capital you had and who really cares about you. I guess…I don’t have any answers whether that’s true but I’m happy for all the friends I’ve made and those that have stayed.
Certainly I would have liked it if some people had lived up to my expectations. But I have come to realise that part of being a friend is appreciating others and not expecting anything in return.
“ In every thing give thanks: for this is the will of God in Christ Jesus concerning you.” 1 Thessalonians 5:18
So sorry for spamming whoever who follows me on Tumblr >.<
Paris Showroom - Dion Lee.
graduations are really.. funny things to think about, if you think about it.
not much of a music student, but i thought this was fitting.
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I don’t know what to feel. I honestly don’t. Hence, I’m trying to find my way out of this tangled mess through writing (yay journal skills?). Unlike everyone, I didn’t outwardly cry tonight or take multiple selfies with everyone. Obviously, I’m not the most expressive person. However, I really love all my friends, i.e everyone else.
Typical graduations (or at least how I know them from japanese comics) are often depicted as celebratory and teary events where people talk about the wonderful setting and the particular bunch of people they’ve stuck to during their secondary life. Reality is very different.
I guess I would say I’m happy and that I am very thankful for all the fun I’ve had in the past 6 years of my life in SOTA and no matter how much I gripe or complain, I know that it’s still these people that I have come to love, commiserate and debate with. Really, it has been comforting to know that they’ll always be there for the past 6 years. Personally, I really hope that we’ll continue to have those classroom conversations about art, events, life and everything because it’s these people that I’m so comfortable with.
The journey has been difficult but it isn’t the end. I’ve made alot of bad decisions. Sometimes I regret that I didn’t socialise or make more friends when I was in my lower years. I guess I kindof feel it now when I see many of my peers going out with each other and doing the things I want to do but can’t because well.. I don’t know. After awhile I’ve come to realise that you’re only as distant as you want to be and that it’s up to you to be the friendly person that’s there for others. And I’m thankful for that lesson and realisation. I guess it’s sufficient to say that I’ve progressed from the little year 2 girl convinced that everyone was wearing masks and was given the comment to make more friends in my report card (haha).
At the end of the day, I really can’t let go. I really want everyone to do well, not just sporadic individuals but everyone in the level. Because at the end of the day it’s one for all, all for one. Haha, even though I didn’t say it but I actually stayed up crying the night before (yes, yes) because I was worried that all of us won’t do well and I really wanted everyone to do so.
At the heart of everything I think that it is important for people to care and share regardless of the situation. That’s how we begin to love. And I really love all my friends, classmates, cohort mates, teachers that have stuck through with us. I guess it’s accurate to say that I wouldn’t be where I am today (as cheesy as it may be) without all the encouragement, confidence and trust from my peers. I really don’t want to let them go and it’s not just for sentimentality’s sake.
I love you guys (even through all the ranting and my negative speech) and let’s work together in our next 24 days :’)
Credits: Becky Lee, Ching Yi and My mum for all the photos
Dream’s don’t come true. Nightmares do.
it means war when my opponent in othello suddenly said this. coz black always wins more.
It’s rather sad that many of the old teachers are leaving, especially the good ones. It’s frustrating since the underlying sentiment is that there is a mismatch in ideology.
Some will come and some will go.
Sad, but true. I just hope that the good things from the past will endure and not be erased by the conventional route.
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